The A Troop From Hell

To Whomever cares,
 Forward Observer has to be the most unwanted MOS in the Army. The Artillery wants nothing to do with us, the Infantry can careless about an FO, and the CAV apparently can already call for fire. Its been almost 4 months since my last posting of 700 days. From the last post a lot has happened but nothing for the best. In the "82nd Airborne" running is everything, and I mean RUNNING IS EVERYTHING!!!! If you cannot run at a pace of 6:30 a mile for 6 miles you are considered scum , and treated the way child molesters are treated in prison, one senior leader went so far as to call us "leaky vaginas" because we didn't have what it took to finish the run.. They call us Professionals , Is this something a professional would say? Probably not. 10 years ago I came into the Army wanting to do something I thought was a good thing. 3 days ago it has come to me that I no longer want to be in an organization, that chooses to believe there lies. Loyalty , Duty, Respect, Selfless Service, Honor, Integrity, and Personal Courage. They call these the "Army Values", Values that every soldier lives by, I have only met a small handful that live by these values, as well as carries themselves in a professional manner at all times. My commander, CPT Marlon Anders treats people with such disrespect, he does not acknowledge my existence for the sole fact that I do not look skinny like he does. The second time I ever  spoke to him he made a comment in front of everybody about how I packed on more weight. I do not consider myself obese in any way as the Army does. Obese people could not run 6-8 miles a day, do 75 push ups in 2 min, or run consistently for an entire week. I honestly feel I will not make it through these 700 days , with everything that is going on. I do not believe in any kind of higher power, but I ask for something or someone to please help me get through these darkest days of my life. This horrible person that calls him the Commander of Alpha Troop 5-73 should not treat people the way he does. Im hurting real bad inside, the other day I cried during lunch. I feel so awkward being in the new environment with a commander that I work directly for , thinking so little of me . I feel I shouldn't have to prove myself to the person who has been in the military for only 4-5 years. When he was in college, I was deployed in combat calling for fire, and now I have this guy treating me like this. Treating me like this just because he outranks me. "Hope" this is what I have to hold on to for the next 580 days, a Hope that I can make it to my ETS date without doing something foolish, or getting kicked out. Somebody or something please help me.